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Conclusions and Intros

This is one of those blog posts where I don’t really know where to start. So I’ll just go for it.

Last week I received an email from my publisher canceling my book. The email cited market reasons and preemptively answered the few questions I had. (Do I get to keep the half of the advance I’d received? Yes. Can I try other publishers? Yes.) This has happened to a lot of people this year, so I wasn’t actually that surprised, but I did have a lot of other emotions.

No one can do sad quite like a St. Bernard.

As I dealt with the rather conflicting emotions, the main thing I felt was shame and guilt. I find these emotions generally useless and yet I sure do deal with them an awful lot! I felt guilty because I’d gotten free fabric from manufacturers to work on the quilt. I felt shameΒ that I’d fallen behind on my schedule due to moving, etc. and wondered if that played a part even though it wasn’t mentioned. Friends had donated time by helpingΒ the sewing projects as I started fall behind and I felt guilty about that. And I felt shame that I’d have to tell people my book got canceled.

Cats are masters of wallowing. Generally in their own awesome – some creative liberties were taken with the use of this photo.

So I sent out a flurry of emails and posted it on Facebook because the best way I’ve found to deal with shame is to just get it out there. And then I wallowed a bit because dude, it kinda sucked.

It’s been a few days and now I mostly feel relief. My sewing time has been really cut into lately due to new job/long commute, and so all my free time has been going to book sewing. I’ve really missed being able to share what I’m working on! I’ve missed feeling connected to the community. (as a quick aside, can we get some #modernquilts hashtag going on instagram or something? I miss being able to just check a single group on Flickr to see all the pretty.)

Did someone say Joel Dewberry?!? Happy now!

And so for the first time in months and months, I can start working on new stuff that doesn’t have to be a secret. I’ve been perusing fabric and QDADs and have a couple of ideas. I might even be able to get something done in time to submit to QuiltCon! So that’s exciting!

As for the projects from the book: I’m going to take a break for a bit and do some sewing for me. And then I will probably do some re-touching and finessing and submit the book elsewhere in a month or two. And if the publishers aren’t interested, I’ll consider self-publishing or piecemealing the patterns. I think it’s pretty cool stuff and I’d really like to get it out there in some form or another!

And just because I want to make sure they get thanked properly in some form sooner rather than later: many thanks to Karen @ CapitolaQuilter, Rachel @ WoodenSpoon Quilts, Adrianne @ On The Windy Side, Deb @ deb_trail(IG), and Sarah @ {no} hats in the house for their wonderful help with sewing for the book. Y’all are amazing!



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